Well, its been a few days. Cant say I enjoyed it though. Sleep walking and falling over onto a ceramic heart sent me to hospital for a couple of days, internal stitches in A&E and then surgery to stitch my arm up. Lost 2 pints of blood... Couple of days in hospital and now wearing an arm brace.
To say it has not been easy is an understatement. Feel really weak and tired and there last few days seems like an absolute blur! Emotionally - I think stress caused the sleep walking. Have a lot on my plate, but it was more traumatic then anything else. Knowing the stress I put my partner through and looking at the reminder of blood everywhere is quite upsetting.
Today I think I am starting to emotionally feel what has happened over the past few days. So feeling very anxious!
I have started meditating with headspace and I will also be starting a journal as well as write on here.
Onwards and Upwards! I AM ENOUGH
Hey there if you're doing ok it sounds like you're going through a tough time and I really don't think you should be feeling the way you do wondering what you letting your partner go through I mean her she would have left if you wanted to a long time ago and you know she loves you and it's okay for you to get hurt it's okay for you to feel this way and it's okay for you to go through the motions and it's okay for you to sometimes feel sad or sometimes feel and that you non deservant of the love you get but one thing that's Not Okay is if you feel that you're not worth it…